It’s Tuesday, just another Tuesday morning. 6:30am and I’m looking forward to 5:00 as if there were nothing worth wile in between. I find myself here in this mind set more and more… Waiting.

Another day, Wishing it away.

It used to be that I couldn’t wait to wake up. It used to be that my work would fill me up. It used to be but not lately it seems. I find my self here now.. Waiting

Another day, Wishing it away.

and when the weekend comes it’s like another world. and when the weekend comes I get to reset and recharge. to prepare for another week of… waiting

Another day, Wishing it away.

In terms of my music I like to express myself in metaphors.. If what you do in life is a Taxi cab that takes you to a destination, Then I have been driving around the block with the meter running for years. Every once in a while I get an idea of where I want to go but then when that left turn comes I turn right because that’s the way I have been taking since I started….and I end up going around the block again.

Maybe I have been listening to too many PR people, Maybe I haven’t been paying attention. But lately I have been hearing the same thing from every source. “A successful Plan will be a success” “Set a goal and lay out the steps it will take to get there”

Plan for success?  There’s a thought.. But before I can make a plan for success I need to define what  success is for me and that’s where I go south. How do I ask for what I want if I can’t even decide what I want?

Excuse me while I think out loud

Success = ARRRG!

Success = …..

Success is Musical, Happy, Profitable, Sustainable, Fulfilling, Service to others,Friendship,  Community involvement, success is doing something I am good at. Confident

I have an idea of what it might look like but I still don’t have a goal.

So let’s break it down

Musical: Playing music, writing music, promoting music, promoting musicians, Music production, live music production.

Happy: Content, Playing music, Parties,events

Profitable: gigs, Paydays, sales, services

sustainable: subscriptions, repeat customers, fans, products,licensing,royalties,services

Fulfilling: Service , community, fame.

Got to get to work touch on this again later.

A couple months ago I asked to change my shift to 4 – 10s  What sounded like a good idea has turned out to have some drawbacks. Damn it’s early . Also I have to work Sundays now. which means one less day on the weekend with my wife. But I’m going to give it an honest go and see how We adapt.

Recently I have been waking up to the sound of my name. Clear as day. Sometimes in my own voice sometimes Jeannette’s or Tami’s Voice. It’s not like a dream,cause there is no plot or visual element. No other sounds, just my name being spoken. Sometimes it’s “Ronnie” and sometimes it’s “Ron”.It wakes me up and there’s nobody there. Also it does not coincide with my internal clock. last time it was 5:00AM, and I’m never up that early. It’s happening often enough that it’s starting to creep me out.